Speaking to Charlotte Hawkins for Good Morning Britain, the singer revealed that she had attempted to take her own life when the charges were brought against her.
“It just all got too much for me. I’m not going to sit here and want a pity party. It was a dark time, a very dark moment but I’ve got through it and I am here today. I felt like my life was over. Like someone had taken my life away. They took it out of my hands and took it away in a second. [The] lowest point was when I found out I was going to be officially charged. It had already been dragging on for so long. When I found out I was being charged I lost the faith.” – Tulisa
She added that certain people in the public eye are more likely to get away with things putting it down to an issue of “class” and that the ordeal has “made [her] a paranoid wreck”.
Tulisa also revealed that she had come to terms with the idea of going to prison, having initially found it “very scary” and that the biggest thing she had feared was losing her livelihood.
“Prison was very scary at first but then I had to come to terms with it because I thought it was a possibility. I came to terms with it – I accepted it. The biggest fear for me was losing my livelihood; something I have worked for from the age of 11 years old. I’ve not known anything else, its all I have had.” – Tulisa
The former X Factor judge claimed that despite the media portraying her as a “monster”, she is going to try and “go back to what I love again.”
The case relates to an undercover investigation conducted by Mazher Mahmood for The Sun On Sunday – the star had been accused of brokering a drugs deal for the reporter. The ensuing trial at Southwark Crown Court collapsed last week due to “serious misconduct” on behalf of Mahmood.
Watch a clip of Tulisa speaking to Good Morning Britain below: